surferchic22

1. Who are you and what's our relationship?

2. How and where did we meet?

3. How long have you known me?

4. Tell me one good thing about myself.

5. When you first saw me, what was your first impression?

6. Color of my eyes.

7. Have you ever had a crush on me?

8. What's one of my favorite things to do?

9. Do you remember one of the first things I said to you?

10. Describe me in 3 words.

11. Do you think I'm good looking?

12. How would you describe me to someone?

13. Would you ever date me?

14. Tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did.

15. What do you like most about me?

16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.

17. What do you think my weakness is?

18. Do you think I'll get married?

19. What makes me happy?

20. What reminds you of me?

21. If you could give me anything, what would it be?

22. When's the last time you saw me?

23. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/staying the same?

24. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?

25. Are you gonna put this on your journal and see what I say about you?

26. What song (if any) reminds you of me?

27. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be and why?

28. Would you make a move on me?

29. Do I cross your mind at least once a day?

30. Have we kissed? If not would you kiss me?

Looking back at me I see
That I never really got it right
I never stopped to think of you
I'm always wrapped up in
Things I cannnot win
You are the antidote that gets me by
Something strong
Like a drug that gets me high

What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be so cold

What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be cold to you

And I'm sorry about all the lies
Maybe in a different light
You could see me stand on my own again
Cause now i can see
You were the antidote that got me by
Something strong like a drug that got me high

What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
never meant to be so cold

What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be so cold
I never meant to be sooo cold

I never really wanted you to see
The screwed up side of me that I keep
Locked inside of me so deep
It always seems to get to me
I never really wanted you to go
So many things you should have known
I guess for me theres just no hope
I never meant to be so cold

What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be cold

What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be cold

How can I go from feeling so high to feeling so low in only a matter of one night?!?!? My life is about to completely CHANGE! I am a little aprehensive about it all, but I know in my heart that I will be ok and that I can do this! I am going to be going to a new school, getting a new job, and living in a completely different city! Yea...I am terrified, but I KNOW that I can do it! I am having to find inner strength in myself right now which is a first for me! I have always had someone holding me up and holding my hand all my life and that is the majority of my problems! It really sucks and hurts right now, but I know this is what I need! I have been struggleing with this and myself for a long time, but was too afraid to jump into it or face my problems b/c I knew I would have no one to fall back on, but this time I am getting thrown into it b/c someone up there knows that it is what I am supposed to be doing! I am just sorry that I had to hurt someone so special to me in the process of me figuring out what I was supposed to be doing my life at this point! I know we will continue to be friends b/c what we had will not and cannot just die over night! I am just really scared of what is to come in the next few months! But, all I can do now is buckle my seatbelt and prepare my self for the ride b/c my life is going to go on with or without me, but preferably with me! I know this is going to make me a much stronger person, I just wish the healing process would hurry up and get over...lol!

Last I have 3 people that I need to apologize to! You know who you are! I should not have acted the way I did the other night! It was way out of character for me! I'm sorry!

I love you!!!!

Ok so I don't know what it is lately but I am doing overwhelmingly GREAT in school!!! I just don't know why it is just now kicking in with only 2 weeks left!!!! But its whatever, I am loving it now! I was not doing not so hot in French and having a hard time with it and then I took a test today and got a 100 on it and then he handed back some papers from tuesday and I got a 95 on that one! I was so proud of myself and my friends that are in that class were all hating on me and I loved it! Lol! And I made a 100 on an Algebra test...propably for the first time in my life!!! Yea...I am such a nerd but I cannot help it!

Dwain is comeing up to the boro tonight to go see the play with me! This will be my second time to see it but I absolutly love it so I am really excited! I know he is going to love it! I really hope it is going to be the same people b/c I know how they like to change it up sometimes in these plays, but I am pretty sure it will be the same people! It better be...that one boy is soooo hot!

My dad really surprised me this year with his plans for Christmas. He recently got married and all of her family lives in Indiana and she ALWAYS goes up there to be with them and my dad does not have much family here so I thought he would go with her and her kids, but he is actually staying home by himself to be with my brother and I! It really shocked me that he was going to do that and he just said that he did not want to be away from us at christmas time. Awww...I love my daddy! So I think that I am going to go out to his house after I get off work on saturday b/c I am sure I will have to work that day on Christmas eve which really sucks, but oh well I guess I will have to get over it! I am excited about this Christmas, although I have NO IDEA of what to get anybody! Ahem...DWAIN!!!! I usually can get pretty good ideas on what to get people for things like birthdays and Christmas but nothing is coming to me this time! I NEED HELP!!!

Anyways, I think that is all I wanted to say! I just appealed some parking tickets so everyone keep your fingers crossed for me! :-)

Well this weekend went by way too fast! I had lots of fun though! Friday night my friend Heather and I went to a play at MTSU! It was Rocky Horror Picture Show! OMG...it was the best play I have ever been to! I usually hate going to plays but I got extra credit in my english class for going to this one and was dreading every minute of it, but I ended up loving it! It was so funny and had so many hot boys and jokes that I just got and were so funny! I loved it so much that I am going again on Thursday night! I want Dwain to see it so me, him, and Steph are going! I am excited!

Saturday Dwain and I got up and cleaned our house! Then he went to work on his car and I went to work. I got off at eight then came home to get ready to go out! Dwain and I have not been out in a while so it was so much fun! I love it how I can just go to a club with one person and have a great time with just them. In the past I always needed a big group so things would not be akward and for me to feel like I would have fun, but it is not like that with Dwain! We had lots of fun and ended up spending lots of money, but like I said we have not been out in a while so it was all worth it and we deserved it! I think I am in love with Matt Cambell!jk I love Matt! I love seeing him at the club! He is so nice and so cute and I love dancing with him! He just cracks me up! We also saw someone who I thought was my friend at one point. He completely blew of my bf so he is no longer worth my time! I did not really see this until it was pointed out to me and I am really sorry for that! But it is clear to me now and I no longer have anything to do with this person b/c I don't need people like that in my life!

Well anyways I gotta go to my French class! I hate that class! Love you all!

I QUIT OLD NAVY!!!!!!! I am so happy that I don't have to go back to that god for saken place anymore!!!! I hated every second of working there the last month or two that I did! I don't even really know why I had two jobs b/c I was only getting 40 hours between the both of them so I just asked my manager at JC Penny if I could go full time there and she said yes! So I am getting paid more and getting the same amount of hours with out having to put up with the bullshit from Old Navy! I love it! I am hoping to get a new job the first of the year that pays a little better, but I have to wait until I register for spring classes to do so, so I will know my availability!

I am a lot more happier these days, with me not having near as much stress as I did! I am doing great in school! Except for freaking Algebra! I do great on homework and quizzes but for some freakin reason I got 74's on my last two big tests! I mean what the fuck?!?!?! It makes me mad that I do so well on the other stuff for that class but can only get a very low C on the tests which count more than any other thing!!!!!! Oh well, I think it will even out in the end! I hope so anyways!

This weekend Dwain may be going out of town! I HATE staying at home by myself! I freak myself out and it is just boring! Friday night my friend Heather and I are going to go to a play here at school! They are doing the Rocky Horror Picture Show! Heather loves that movie and I get extra credit in English class for going so I think we are going to do that! Saturday, Eric had mentioned us hanging out and doing something since we have not done that in a while! I don't know if I really want to or not yet b/c I have to work late, he doesn't know if he has to work or not, and I really want to go out! It has been a while! Sunday there is a bag pipe concert kinda thing at the Renaissance Center in Dickson that I would love to go to!! I just love stuff like that!!! I hope I can find someone to go with me b/c I really want to go!

Anyways, I think that is all for now! Love to all!

This morning when I woke up and was so tired for some reason! I did not really get into bed too late, but I guess the long day with little sleep caught up with me this morning! But anyways I did not go to my first class b/c I knew nothing was going on in there so I got to sleep an extra hour! Anyways, I left the house about 30 mins after Dwain did to get to school early enough for my French class and to go by my first class that I missed just to be positive I did not miss anything important, which I didn't! But, my friend who I am not well with was actually in there this morning. She saw me go in to talk to the teacher and so stood beside me the whole time while I was talking and I could not even look at her! She walked out of the class after a min so I thought that she had gone on to do whatever, but as I was walking out of the class headed towards my next one she yelled out to me to wait on her but I continued walking! She caught up to me and she asked me where I had been and I didn't answer! She continued to walk with me both of us in the most akward silence until it was time for us to split up and go our separate ways, when she said "so you haven't punched me yet so I guess you are not as mad" all I said was I was over it and went on to class! The irony of us both walking then taking separate paths at one point was overwhelming! And it really hit me at that point that I really did not care anymore! It kinda came to a shock to me about how much I did not care that I was walking away! If she wants to sit down and talk about everything with me then at some point I probably will but we will never be friends like we used to and I will never care as much about how bad she screws up her life as much as I did! She tried to talk to me the other night but she was fucked up yet again and kept telling me to shut up and getting smart with me so I let her go. Then I called her one night and told her to come over to talk but she had other things to do like hang out with her friends who she has only known for maybe 6 months at the most!!! So I said forget it! I wrote her an email today saying that until she made steps in improving herself and her life to not even attempt to talk to me b/c I wasn't dealing with it anymore. I am not expecting a phone call for a while to say the least! I gave her the numbers of counceling services that I found for her here on campus and in the boro so maybe she will actually call one of them! I am just not the person to be around alcoholics/drug addicts! Its not me and I don't associate myself with people like that no matter how long I have known them! So it is all up to her now!

On another note...my car insurance, which is like 500 and something dollars is due this month. My parents told me from the beginning that they would pay it until I got the settlement, but now things are changing! We have not settled b/c we are waiting to see that nothing else is going to go wrong with me as far as needing more medical attention, but it is filed and we should be hearing something soon! But anyways, I could have paid for it all if my parents would not have waited until the last minute(last week) to tell me that I had to pay this one! If I would have known that they were not going to be able to pay it, which they knew a long time ago that they wouldn't, then it would not have been a problem at all! I could have saved my money and paid it myself, but they waited this long and I cannot just pull 500 dollars out of my ass to give to them. Now, both my parents are pressuring me to move back home so I wont' have bills and such to worry about b/c they think i have a money issue! I DON'T HAVE A MONEY ISSUE!!! I would have had the money for the insurance if they would have told me before now!!!!!! AGH!!!! There is absolutly no way I am moving back home! I could not deal with that! My parents are crazy!!!! I am happy where I am at and would rather shoot myself in the foot than to move back home!

On a better note...my family is really warming up to Dwain now! At first they were ok with me hanging out with a "Gay" person, (I quoted "gay" b/c Dwain is not gay to me, he is just Dwain!) but that was all a fake. Then the hospital thing happened when he was up there everyday and my family really got to see how much of a great friend he is! So now, I think everyone in my family has personaly invited him to our Christmas, even my paw paw who was at one point totally against all homosexuals! Anyways, I think it is great! I would not have had it any other way!!!! I mean they could dislike him and him not come around, but under no circumstances would I have ever stopped being friends with him! There is just no way that would have ever happened!!!

I am so confused on what to do with my friend right now!!!!! She is going through a lot and screwing up REALLY bad! She is addicted to drugs, she gets plastered EVERY night of the week, and never comes to class(the only two that she has, she dropped the others)!!!!! It is really sad and I am really sad for her and I probably worry about her more than I should, well I know I do! I just can't help it! We have been friends and in each others lives through everything since the 3rd grade! Up until I met Dwain she was the first person I would call when I was facing a big problem! Now I almost don't want to be around her b/c of what she has turned into! I have made little hints at her to come to class and even straight told her that she needed to get her shit together! I have even sat down with her and talked to her but nothing has worked! I am sick and tired of worrying about her all the time! I have enough on my plate without having to deal with someone else! I am just afraid she is going to kill herself and I could not deal with that! I know I would feel like I just did not do enough to help her, but I can give nothing else at this point! She really put me over the edge the other day when she lied to me telling me that her mom was really sick and that she had to take her to the doctor on a day our english papers were due and got me to come to her house and pick it up for her to turn in to our teacher. I thought it was kinda weird that she was taking her mom to the doctor but i gave her the benefit of the doubt and believed her and went and picked it up anyways! Well, that was my mistake...she was laying in bed asleep when I got there! I was so pissed that she had lied to me to skip class on top of me talking to her and trying to help her she just used me! Later that night I texted her and probably said some things that I will regret and some things that I should not have, but I have literally had it! I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!!!!!! I want to be here for her but it seems as if I am just wasting my time! I ahve always siad that i am over it just being mad but this time I really do think I am wasting my time on a hopeless person as much as it hurts me to say that! I want to be there for her but she has to want it!!!!

Well...today marks the one year anniversary of my wreck! It is hard for me to imagine that right now at this point last year I was just comeing out of my first surgery ever! It is amazing!!! I just want to give a special thanks to all the people who prayed for my recovery and an even bigger thanks to my aunt, my mom, and Dwain! Without them being there for me 24/7 it would have been a lot harder for me to come out of that as soon as I did! My aunt was at the hospital everyday bringing me goodies and halloween decorations for my ugly hospital room and my mom spent sleepless nights with me every night while I was in the hospital and even when I got out she even took off work to stay with me! Both of them are amazing people and I love them very much! All my family was there for me but my friends are what pulled me through! Dwain would come to the hospital every day and spend hours talking to me so I would not feel alone! I love him so much for that! Also it was a BIG motivation for me to get off my ass and get well soon so I could go out and have fun again! There were plenty of times that I would get so depressed b/c I could not be out with my friends having fun that I would just not even want to wake up the next day, but Dwain was always there telling me things were sure to get better soon and to keep my head up and that things would be just the same as I left them when I got back! He would also come and pick me up from Dickson and take me home so I could spend some weekends with him and out of the house! If it was not for that I think I would have gone CRAZY! Thank you so much for being there for me! Also, when my friends drove all the way from Chatanooga, Clarksville, and Kentucky from their different colleges it showed me just how much they loved and cared for me! I don't always show my love to those few friends but they will always have a place in my heart and love them as I always have!

I look at this as a blessing now! It taught me a very valuable lesson which is to live every day for that day b/c tomorrow is not promised! I was one of the lucky ones who got a second chance at life!

There is so much more I want to say and so many more thanks to give but there is no way I could type it all! I just hope everyone knows that I love them and appreciate everything they did for me!

I have had a lot on my mind for the last month or so! A lot to do with me and the choices that I have made for my life up to this point! I have also been going through some things at my best friends side! In my perfect world I would make him stop hurting and stop crying and make everything be perfect for him! But seeing as how that is all a fantasy all I can do is be by his side and love him and be there for him through the hard times!

Last night I went home to talk to someone and while talking to him I could relate my life and my decisions to his feelings in so many ways than anyone can realize! Someone pointed out to me a while back that no decision that you make is a wrong decision b/c somewhere in God's master plan you were supposed to make that decision whether it failed or succeeded! As I was saying this to him I finally realized that I should be taking my own advice and love the life that I have chosen for myself. The path I have chosen is not one of a "typical" college student but without a certain person in my life there is no telling where I would be right now! If it wasn't for him I would probly be drunk and high off something 24/7 b/c before I met him that was the only influence I had in my life! He has shown me the way out of so many bad situations dealing with anything and everything and has helped me grow in so many ways than one! HE IS MY GUARDIAN ANGEL!!!!

I love you Dwain, THANK YOU!!!!!

I NEED HALLOWEEN COSTUME IDEAS! I have no clue what I want to be!!!

NOTE TO EVERYONE:

I am wanting to do something wild and crazy with my hair! I want to dye it or something! So if anyone has any ideas PLEASE leave a comment and let me know! I don't know what I should do!

Yea ok...so it has been a really long time since I last updated! I really don't have the time anymore to do anything that I would like! I am working full time and going to school full time, but I gotta do what I gotta do and I know that there are people out there who have it a lot worse than me right now so I really can't complain!!! Anyways, I have come to realize that no one really appreciates the beauty life, all most people really care about are the MATERIAL THINGS that life offers! But I won't elaborate on that subject b/c this would be the never ending lj post!

So, Dwain and I have still not found a place to live yet! We went and looked again today, but out of all the places we called, either no one answered or they couldn't show the house until Monday which sucks really bad b/c neither one of us have time during the week really to go meet with them! We are currently sharing a room, which isn't bad! Not like what I thought it was going to be anyway! I thought we would be at each other's throat all the time, but it is completely the opposite of that. I think it has made us closer, if that is possible! I think the issues I had dealing with lots of things w/ mine and Dwain's friendship have pretty much dissolved. There are still a few times when my mind wants me to think like I used to, but I have control over that now! (wow...that kinda makes me sound psychotic in a way...lol) Its just that I now realize that it is just my nurtured fucked up way of thinking!

School is going GREAT this year! I actually know people on campus now so it is not so boring! I had lunch w/ my cousin Mikey the other day and I met this girl named Johnna who is in two of my classes! She is just kick ass so we hang out all day together. It is so weird b/c all her classes are in the same buildings at the same times as mine, plus two of them are the same! We were meant to be friends! I kinda wanted to join a sorority this year, but I just don't have the time or the money! Plus you have to be on campus pretty much every day b/c there is something always going on and I just can't do that! The other day at school I kept staring at this boy b/c I thought he was soooo hot, then I went to the club Saturday night and saw him again there! I thought it was weird that I just randomly ran into him again so in my tipsy state I went up to him and started talking to him. We started out talking about school and where I had seen him before and then I just had to know before I continued flirting with this boy if he was gay or not! NO, he isn't gay! Thank god! He is an emo, and those boys are open to all kinds of stuff and I just love that! But anyways, we exchanged numbers and are supposed to meet up at school to hang out between classes, so we will see where that goes. I hope we hit it off b/c I would love to date an emo boy...ugh so hott! One of my used to be best friends from high school is in my 8:00 class. It is kinda cool having her in there so I can have someone that I know, but she just isn't the same person as she used to be at all! We have been friends ever since the 3rd grade. Now, it hurts me to say, I really don't want anything to do with her anymore! She has lots of issues dealing with school, drugs, and even her sexuality! She is just fuked up in all aspects of her life! I have tried to be there for her and be a good influence in her life, (yea me...a good influence...hard to believe huh?) but she just will not have it! I have offered to pick her up and take her to school b/c she doesn't like riding the raider bus but she won't get up b/c she was up till 4:00 that morning being fuked up. I just don't have time to deal with that right now!

Anyways, I am going to get off here and go wake up Dwain to go see that movie The Exorcism of Emily Rose! I can't wait to see it, it looks so scary!

If anyone is ever out in the Cool Springs area stop by and see me. I am working at the JC Penny in the mall!

Peace out bitches!!!!

OK...well is is Friday night at like 10:45 and what am I doing? NOTHING!!!! I am so annoyed...all my plans went to shit at the VERY last minute tonight! I was supposed to go hang out with Dwain and Amanda after they went out to eat with some co-workers then they decided to go to the Tin Roof afterwards and it is 21 and up on Friday and Saturdays so I could not go! So b/c I thought I was going to be going back to Nashville I told my mom that I would have to skip out on going to a movie with them b/c we would have not gotten out on time! So now I am sitting home by myself on a Friday night. I have even gone through my phone book trying to find something to do but everyone is either working, not answering, or already have made plans with someone else! I guess it is a good thing though b/c I really don't need to spend money and I only had one hour of sleep last night and had to work five to five today! But I still kinda wanted to hang out with someone, anyone! I am not mad at anyone for tonight it was no one's fault just kinda pissed at the way things turned out! But who wouldn't be? Ok well I am going to stop bitching now and go find some movie on tv or something! Hope everyone else has/had a good night!

OMG...I have been working every day this week and I know it may not seem like a lot to anybody else, but I am used to working only 3 days a week for 5 hours at a time! My body is not used to this abuse yet and it hurts! But I need the money so I am just going to have to get used to it!

Last night some of my friends that I went to high school with came over to my house to hang out! We had a few drinks and went for a late night swim and it was lots of fun just catching up on things and looking back and talking about all the good, crazy times we had in school and all the stupid shit we used to do! During this I have come to realize that mixing alcohol with big amounts of water then throwing me in the equation is not a good idea at all! After I was a little typsy I was playing around and when I would go under the water I would breath in and inhale water into my lungs!! It was not fun at all! So we all got to talking again and before I realized it, it was 1:30 in the morning and I had to be at work an hour away from where I am at, at 5, meaning I would have to get up at 3:30 to get ready and be there on time! Well, I hated to rush them off, but I had to get some sleep or I would have never made it to work and I barely even did at that, I kept falling alseep while driving down the interstate and I don't even remember half of the drive! I tried everything too, I froze myself, I was slapping my face, snapping my fingers in my face to wake me up, I was singing with the music as loud as it would go and I was still falling asleep even while singing! It was rough and I thought I was never going to make it! Thank God we all got off early so I was able to come home a take a nap!

Tommorrow (thursday) I am going to go to dancing in the district with my friend Amanda and some people that I work with. Then when the concert is over we are planning on going over the the red iguana to hang out for a minute! I don't know if we will for sure go to the club b/c I have to work Friday again and all day this time for sure so I don't know if I will want to stay out that late! But as someone told me yesterday, "you have your whole life to sleep when you are dead so you should go anyways!" so I don't know...I will probly end up going!

Well, I am going to go now! Hope to see yall soon! Love ya!

Ok well tomorrow I find out if I have to have surgery or not on my right knee! I really really really hope that I don't! But I will be happy to find out either way tomorrow b/c it is all that I seem to be able to think about! I am running off of maybe 2hrs of sleep having to be up this morning at 4:30 to go to work! Plus I stayed at Dwain's house last night and for some reason I have been unable to sleep at all when I stay at his house here lately and the fact that he laughs hysterically while he sleeps doesn't really help either! ;) lol! Love you though! Everytime I have even thought about sleep, my mind starts wondering and I start worrying about what I will find out tomorrow! I will be devastated if I have to go through surgery again! I will probly just start crying right there in the doctor's office! But I am trying to think positive so maybe that won't even happen! HOPEFULLY! Gosh...I sure hope it doesn't turn out that way! Well everyone pray for me and hope my verdict comes out to be as good as Michael Jackson's!!! :)

Now I KNOW why I don't ever stay at my mom's more than a couple of days! My family can get on my nerves sooooo bad! My mom begins to get an attitude towards me for no reason no matter what I do and always tries to ask what is going on with my life dealing with my friends as if she really cares! She even asks about how Dwain is, knowing that we both know she doesn't like him! She can be really fake and superficial sometimes and it is so funny b/c I can see straight through it all! My step-brother is the most annoying person I have ever come into contact with! (with the exception of this one boy that would not stop talking to me at connections one night...dwain, you know which one I am talking about :) Anyways, ya know when you have been at working and dealing with shit all day and you just wanna relax and watch a little tv with no interruptions...yea well that is impossible here b/c of him! He is always wanting to talk about something whether you are listening to him or not and will NOT shut up! ANNOYING!

Well, I am glad I let that out! Sorry for the bitch fest! My family may be fucked up and crazy, but what family isn't? I still love them no matter! (I GUESS) AHHH...I feel better! :)

I just want to give a special shout out to Andrew Mcgee! (i think that is how you spell his last name???) I don't think "the leg" will ever be the same again after having his skinny, bony ass fall on it Saturday night!

Anyways it was all in good fun! Sorry I passed out on everyone! I had a little too much to drink! Plus it has kinda been a rough couple of months for me and I am starting to slowly break down b/c of it all! Hopefully when I get the hell away from here next week I will be able to clear my head and come back with things figured out and maybe feeling better about everything! But I don't want to bore everyone with all my problems I know that is not what yall want to read! I know Dwain is sick of hearing me talk about it, and to be honest I am tired of talking about it! Just can't seem to get some things off my mind! Well I hope yall have a good rest of the week and maybe I will see yall soon! Love ya bunches!

Oh...one more thing...Dwain, thanks for always being there for me! These last couple of weeks you have really showed me how much you do care about me and that you will always be by my side! I needed that more than ever and I love you for it! I can not wait to go out of town! See you in a minute! I love you!!!!

Well, it has been a while since I last updated. Not too much has gone on. Just the usual work and school. Well, me and Dwain did go to Memphis to visit his mom a couple of weekends ago. I just love her to death. I thought it was going to be one of those weird situations with me meeting her for the first time, but it was completely the opposite. She made me feel so welcome and that she had known me for years. She is so nice and she even bought me some cool key chains from Beale Street. Just from meeting her and being around her for a couple of days I now know where Dwain gets his personality and attitude!!! You all know the attitude I am talking about, the freak out and bite someone's head off then fine the next second attitude. That is not anything bad at all, but I just thought it was so funny.

Anyways, last Friday at work my cousin came in and just randomly asked me, my other roommate, and a co-worker of ours if we wanted to go on a road trip to Gulf Shores for Spring Break. Well, she wasn't really serious but everyone was like yea I will go, so we all found someone to cover our shifts at work for the week and packed up and headed to Gulf Shores on Sunday. It was kinda cool b/c we didn't know where we were going to stay, what we were going to do, and none of us had hardly any money b/c it was so random. Well, we didn't end up leaving the boro until about 6:30 b/c Craig and Mary were not packed, plus we had to wait until Mary got off work. We got into Gulf Shores around 1:00 Monday morning to find nothing but a ghost town. Hurricane Ivan had wiped them out and they were still not finished repairing all of the hotels. There were no hotels open and the beach was even closed b/c there was still so much debris in the sand. So, we continued up hwy 98 that travels the coast all the way around Florida until we could find a cool place to stay with a beach that was actually open. The first place we stopped at in Florida was almost like a gated community in Pennsecola. You had to pay a toll to get over the bridge and it was the only way in and out of this place. We didn't like that too much, plus the only places to stay were like the Hilton Garden Suites and things like that. Ummmm don't think so! So then we went down the road a little farther and finnally found a nice place to stay in Ft Walton/Destin Beach at six in the morning. It is the most beautiful beach I have ever seen in Florida. The sand was so white and clean, the water is green, and there really weren't that many people there. Even thought the trip to the beach was kinda stressful, we had a great time after we found somewhere to stay. One day on the beach Brian started feeding the seagulls some fries and these birds were eating them out of his mouth. It was the craziest thing. Then, my crazy cousin Brooke decides she wants to hit one of the birds so Brian would hold up a fry and when it swooped down Brooke would swing her fist at them. (you do have to understand that they had a few drinks in them at this time) Well when Brooke first started swinging there was this old couple walking on the beach and had stoped to watch us feed these crazy birds. The old woman saw what Brooke was doing and said, "You almost got it that time." like she wanted her to hit the bird. Then Brooke actually hit one and it made the loudest thumping noise and it fell in the sand right in front of Brian then took off flying again (the look on Brian's face could have won us a million dollars on AFV!) and the old couple just shot us a dirty look and walked away. It was the funniest thing I had seen in a really long time!!!!!!! Gosh there is so much to talk about this trip it would take me days to type it all. We all had a great time and I highly recomend Destin Florida. This will definitely be a Spring Break to remember.

Well...not too much has been going on lately. This past weekend I did absolutely NOTHING!! Just stayed at Dwain's house and slept and watched movies. BLAH!!! Anyways, Valentines Day was kinda hard for me this year. For the last two years I spent it with my Drew and this year we have grown apart and were not together. I had to move away and he has a new girlfriend now, but he still sent me flowers to my work, with the note saying I miss you which just made everything even harder. But, oh well...life goes on! I didn't even have my best friend with me!! How sucky is that?!?!? Anyways, that night things got better. I went up to Adams, where I used to live, and hung out with some old friends. We had sooooo much fun riding four wheelers through all the trails back behind their houses, plus it felt GREAT outside with this spring like weather. Then around 9 or so I headed back to the Boro b/c I had an 8:00 class this morning.:-( Last night while I was on my way home I got a call from this girl with a summer internship offer and asked me to come to an interview today at 3. So, I went b/c I figured what the hell, I should at least see what it is all about. It is pretty cool b/c for one summer kids were making around 10,000 dollars going around to houses and selling books to families. I thought it would be really cool until she got into the part about us working for 80 hours a week and having to move to Minnesota for three months. I don't really think that would be my kinda thing. Working that many hours I could handle, but not the moving away from my family and friends part. So, I turned it down.

Can I just say I am so excited to go to Dwain's mom's house this weekend. Just to get away and to do something different for once will be awesome!! I tried to call Brandon and Jonathan last night but I couldn't get a hold of them, so I am hoping I can a least talk to them today or tomorrow b/c I would really love to go out with them while we are down there. If not oh well there will be other chances I am sure.

Tonight I am going to go down to Dickson to visit with my mom and her side of the family b/c I haven't been down there in a while. My mom got me something for V-day and they always go all out on presents so I am excited to see what it is. Wednesday I think I am going to go to church with Dwain if he goes, but that is if I get all my homework and stuff done. Thursday I have to go to White House right after school b/c I have to take my brother to his dentist appointment at 5:00, then hopefully I will be done in time to go to Jeremy's choir concert at Lipscomb at 7:30. If I miss that I will be really pissed. Friday is Dwain's get together with the people from his work. I am kinda nervous about that b/c I want all his friends to like me and as of right now only a few of them do, so I want to make a good impression I guess you would say. But, I think in this situation I will be better b/c I will be in my element and I will be more comfortable. So, maybe this is my chance to show them that I am a cool person and not a bitch!!!!!

Anyways, I have a lot of stuff that I should be doing right now so I am going to go. I love everyone and I miss yall.

~Mistie~

Ok it is official...I am definitely transferring to Austin Peay next semester!!!! Friday night I went up there to go to a Kappa Sigma party with all of my friends that I went to high school with. I had sooooo much fun. I also got to meet a new person too ;-)!!! Well I met lots of new people, but lets just say I got to know this person really well!! The night kinda started out bad though b/c I had a conversation with someone that kinda put me in my place and made me realize a lot of things about myself that made me feel bad, but it is all good now. I guess you can only learn from your mistakes and trust me that I am going to work on this!!!! Then on top of this, one of my other friends got mad at me b/c after my conversation with the first person I was in a mood and said that I was over the night and just wanted to go home, but she completely took it the wrong way assuming that I didn't want to be there hanging out with her. Oh well...she will get over it. After I broke down and talked to someone everything got better. Anyways, Heather, Liz, Ashley, and I all started to drink a little bit before heading over to the party waiting on the others that were going with us to get back from the store. Once everyone was ready we headed over the the Kappa House. There were so many people there but it was so much fun. Drunk people everywhere, music blasting, and people dancing. We stayed there for about three hours and then headed to another party at the Sig Ep house. We piled 10 people into one little bitty car to go over there. That was very interesting!!! Once we got to the house we all started to get out of the car and Tabitha stepped right into a big puddle of mud and water. She tried to walk out of it, but the mud was so thick her shoe got stuck in it. Then Sarah went over the pick it up and had to pour water out of it. We proceeded to go into the house and Britney and I noticed that there were only like 2 other girls there besides all of us and the rest were guys. We were feeling pretty uncomfortable at this point so we rounded up the girls and went home.

The best part of the night was getting to know Britney, Tabitha, Sarah, and Karyn a little bit better. They all went to school with me but we never once hung out outside of classes. It is amazing how much popularity really doesn't matter in high school b/c now everybody is on the same level. The people that I used to not care for too much turned out to be really cool.